sucks ... this really sucks shit 

fuck the media seriously ...

i totally have no intention of studying maths because its a confirm fail 

and this is way more important ...

why can`t the media just fucking leave him alone ?

ENOUGH MAN !!! HOW LONG ARE YOU FUCKTARDS GONA WRITE ABOUT THIS UNTIL !!!

he really really did nothing !!!

it is really nothing at all NIL !!! ZERO !!! NOTHING !!!

what the hell is wrong with them >:( 

to see him get so upset on the show really it just spoils my whole mood 

at first i thought i wouldnt cry 

but i did like i really poured my heart out 

to listen to him explain everything in such agony it 

really really hurts me to the core man 

you people would just think that im totally stupid 

why am i crying over a guy that doesnt know me 

but he is really someone who cares about US 

his fans ... he knows we are out there and he really loves us !!!

its really heart breaking !!! CAN THEY STOP IT PLEASE 

omg ... so what now !!! he wants to be filial and celebrate mother`s day 

THAT IS WRONG TOO 

FUCK THEM SERIOUSLY 

he said "我会难过的原因 是因为我看到我身边的人为我难过"

and he really meant it. at first i was quite confident that i wouldnt cry cause

everyone keep saying they did ...

but to see his helpless,annoyed and disappointed expression it

really hurts me damn deeply

i mean like you can tell how stressed he is

this is really nothing !!! nothing AT ALL

and he seemed so fed up , i wana help him so badly

but seriously what can i do : (

i cried soo hard i couldn't even sleep !!

i really have never seen him so upset and disappointed before

i really felt damn bad so i had no choice but to call ailynn

( im sorry if i caused you to feel upset and made you not

get to turn in early ... it was 11 pm alr

who the hell can i call and cry to at a time like this other than ailynn !!! )

haiz ...

i was just discussing about him on the car with my mom

in the morning

today and being her usual self she of coursed criticized him

saying he was 笨 which i cannot say i don`t agree with haha

( but i still love him : ) ) anw then i was feeling really depressed

then she was like " ahyah 那个女孩子为什么去爆料 " in a very very

sorry tone

as if she felt very xing tong for him haha

i got a feeling she likes him too XD

anyways

i really want him to know that readers are not stupid

everybody knows he isn`t like that and they all trust him :)

e.g. : jia xin, merlyn, charyl so on so forth : )

and im glad he isnt gona give up and let anything make him

go down :D

DAMN YOU FANNY

GO FUCK YOURSELF SERIOUSLY

GOING TO CANADA " TO START A NEW LIFE " WOULDNT CHANGE

THE FACT THAT YOU ARE A FUCKING BITCH !!!

anyways ... i think im gona switch myself to the emo mood

i couldnt even think about anything else other than him

bloody hell i really wish i could do something : (

but im glad after that he had that cute smile again

:) i think cause many advertisement company

told him they trust and believed him after the thing :)

anyways ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AILYNN !!!

hehe i wana give you a surprise !!!

when you read this cause i`d be at vocals or something :D

hehe anw thanks for being the greatest pal in the world !!!

knowing you is really something worth celebrating and being happy about

i love you from the bottom of my

heart and you know it :)

im glad that you are and will be

the one that i go through all the show

trauma with haha

:) happy 15 th !! this year is special

cause its the year we became friends

and yes you are really speshow to me

getting high and talking to you like

we have known each other for a 1000 years

when we first met each other

is not something that i can do with anyone :D

we shall go for our SFC event next year

TOGETHER

and yes we will continue to cheng yao for

him despite all that might and will happen

I LOVE YOU AILYNN !!! ( looking forward to week 10 !! )

i shall give u your presents then :)

I LOVE YOU !!!

AND I LOVE SHOW TOO !!!

<3