Tuesday, May 26, 2009

she HAS to do something to irritate the fucking hell of me ...
its like she has nothing better to do in life than 
to fucking piss me off 
today at dinner i decided to stay and chat with my family 
cause i was thinking that i sorta neglected them 
with my luo zhi xiang gaga that has started
since forever ...
very extremely wrong choice
i sat down and talked a while 
then my fucking brother kept irritating the hell 
out of my by pestering me to fucking sing in front of them 
is he fucking out of his mind !!!
my cousin was there and that would be the most embarrassing
thing that i would do in life 
so i was being irritated to the point where i had to 
scream to get him to fucking shut up 
so then the freaking comments start coming 
they keep saying that i always raise my voice
but hello can`t they fucking see the reason 
then the conversation goes on 
and i became the joke of the night 
and she started going on about my face and my size ...
what the fuck is fucking wrong with my mother , brother and sister
seriously 
someone tell me 
you know how fucking pissed i am now ...
they can just laugh at me in front of everyone
at dinner and talk about how fat and ugly i am 
seriously they don`t know how cruel they are 
she was like telling my dad
( ok i shall translate ...lazy to type in chinese )
she told my dad i was ugly right in front of my face 
and just everyone alive at the table 
so being fucking siblings that fucking dont care 
about how i was feeling at the point they fucking burst 
out laughing ... so i was fucking embarrassed at dinner 
well at least my dad was kind enough to like 
give that face to my mom and help me ...
but then she said her actions and the way she talks 
is very ugly 
WELL FOR YOUR FUCKING INFO YOU ARE 
NOT ANY FUCKING BETTER DAMN ...
and my brother being a total no brainer started to 
add in all his fucking comments that dont help in life 
so i was really pissed and seeing that my cousin was 
there i didnt wana flare up so i just said 
you gave birth to me so its your fault im so ugly followed by :
" fuck you bitch " well that was what i said in my brain 
anyways then she was like saying in this fucking tone 
like a totally proud tone 
well i gave birth to ziyi and kor also what 
FUCK YOU BITCH SHE DOESNT KNOW 
HOW FUCKING HURTFUL SHE IS TO ME 
damn ... yeah i know im fugly 
unlike your 2 other fucked up precious 
daughter and son that looks sooo pretty and handsome 
FUCK YOU BITCH 
I ALREADY HATED YOU 
AND NOW YOU MAKE ME HATE YOU 
TO THE EXTEND THAT I DONT FEEL GUILTY THAT 
I AM HERE CALLING YOU A BITCH 
you are a real failure 
especially as a mother 
FUCK YOU !!!
god damn it !!!
i seriously hate you to the core !!!
bitch ...
fuck fuck FUCK 
CAN ALL THE FUCKING IRRITANTS 
JUST FUCKING GET OFF MY FUCKING BACK 
and i got a feeling if i dont get counseling soon 
i`d really go jump off a building one day 
just watch me ...
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fuck ...

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