what to do ??
what to do ??
what to do ??
I WANA GET MARRY TO HIM BADLY !!!
like rahh
but where do i get all the $$$ ??
: (
i wana go !!!!
i will need like 220
then i will need like more $$$
to buy my "gown"
i dont know how to break the news to my mom
she is like kinda against it but heck care
i duno what to wear !!!!
am i supposed to put make up ??
but eww !!! i`m inexperienced ?
but i wana look like ... really nice ?!!
IM GETTING MARRIED FOR HEAVEN`S SAKE
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wana wear heels so i can balance the height diff with him
but it will be so wierd !!!
seriously why do i always have to worry over so many things when he comes !!!!
im feeling so depressed now i dun think i can sleep
and i got that puking feeling inside me ...
so i`d probably throw up if i dun get any sleep
rahh im so frustrated ailynn is not going SFC with me
im soo irritated !!!
my bro`s friend owes me money and she keeps giving fucking excuses to not pay !!!
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MARRY HIM IF YOU DUN FUCKING PAY !!!
SUCH A BITCH I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING HER
and my bro is not doing anything about it !!!!
so obviously he doesnt know how important this thing is to me
its like FUCKING important and concerns LIFE AND DEATH
and i feel so sad/guilty/pissed
about the inccident !!!
i dun wana lose a friend
but its wrong to accuse me likdat what !!!!
and what specifically did i tell ??
i mean like you are in a bad mood doesnt mean you can vent it all on me !!!
im not the one who started this !!!
and i didnt spread ANYTHING
its like a whole misunderstood situation
and its gona get AWKWARD
i feel like dying ...
but i have to wait til after my wedding date
: (
haiz .. the whole world is just against me and
DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO GO THROUGH SOO MUCH OBSTACLES WHEN SHOW COMES !!!
this is so fucking killing me !!!
haiz ... but anyways
i still love show
:( more than i should ...
hahahaha
oh well its worth it
:D